humble pie
7/27/2025 | 4:34pm | Sunday | humble pie
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I’m a penny pincher which makes it easier to splurge when I feel inclined, but sometimes I don’t think it all the way thru, sometimes I just want to leave everything behind and build a tiny home in the woods. I’m a simple man, I don’t require much, I like to believe I’m down to earth and humble. I’m under the belief that my RBF [resting bitch face] is from my shyness in public and feeling like I don’t belong. I do my best to leave the world around me undisrupted by my actions, but I also like to leave my mark and make an impression on the world, but I have worked hard for the things I’ve acquired, I think life is complex to fully understand. There’s a lot of dynamics to comprehend as you navigate thru age.
frugal
I don’t need name brand anything, I’m contend with goodwill clothing or items from Amazon. I don’t need brand name stuff, ironic as I try building my own brand. I also challenged myself this year to only wear shirts I designed. That shifted and have started collecting band tee’s from concerts I attend as a beginner collection for the record shop. It’s part on brand, the tee shirts become an investment at this point. I have a Yeezus tour tee from like 8 years ago it’s musty with holes but I can’t wait to see in my shop one day. As I continue to compile vinyl albums, tee’s and other various collectible items for inventory in the future. I’m always trying to make every purchase count. If it doesn’t have a return on investment, it needs to serve a practical function.
symbiotic
Being away from my 2025 luxuries. a simple Honda Civc to some is everything to me. A shop on wheels, a home away from home, a comfort zone that provides safety and joy. It is my true happy place. Something I worked hard for, learned lessons and plan for the future with.
Maybe I got too comfortable, maybe I got caught slipping, maybe I was just ignorant and living in this dreamworld in my head like I was special or something. Maybe that’s the type of energy that causes people to try to steal your joy. I’ve been that person before, I’m honestly not even mad about it anymore. Some people just live a different life based on their circumstances. I guess I’m thankful my car wasn’t taken. [I would’ve had to go full Liam Neeson] I definitely am making some changes to safeguard myself in the future after these repairs are complete. A good dash cam, a lock on my car computer port, and window tint soon. I felt violated, but I’m not sure what else I could do aside from selling the car, which isn’t an option, idea or thought right now.
We exist to complement each other and my heart beats with love for my car and the dream I’m building.
the rental
once upon a time… precisely when I turned 25. Every time I had a rental vehicle I felt better. It was typically an upgrade from my current wheel situation or newer technology or better air condition or flashier style. I always kept a nice car, but the rentals always made me feel special. Last August, I took a road trip into the Blue Ridge Mountain Parkway, I had a 2023 Jeep Gran Cherokee. It was sweet but a little extra it was an upgrade from my 2015 civic, and it inspired me to upgrade but with no car payment I was okay with the idea of running that car til the wheels fall off. Until it got totaled last December. Leaving me without wheels and a need for an upgrade.
2025
I got a brand new car. Assuming nothing could go wrong. Of course, I am a skilled driver with over half a million miles, I know how to keep the car on the road and functioning. What I never forecasted was a real life burglary attempt. My baby, my home away from home, my hard work in the hands of someone I’ve never seen before. It was a major violation that I’m still learning to overcome. It’s in the shop and I’m in a rental. The last thing I was expecting. I was okay with being away from it for a couple days, but a couple weeks has really opened my eyes to how much that car means to me. It’s the yin to my yang. My other half. I had Nissan kicks because I didn’t want the bullshit Nissan Sentra that enterprise rent-a-car picked me up in. It was a price increase and for one week I could manage, but as the repair time got extended into August. I decided to downsize. Not really thinking about it, just wanted something more inexpensive as I wasn’t ubering or delivering food. I figured just something for work and home would be sufficient.
I was wrong
The second I started the car I knew it was going to be a journey. The air condition took a second to kick in. There was no remote starting. No auto-unlock. No arm-rest storage. It’s bare bones interior, and looks like a Honda fit, a miniature station wagon. It’s going to be fun driving this for the week and feeling miserable. I am looking forward to the feeling of having my car again and all the joys it brought me knowing I worked hard for everything that car is. I’m hoping the repair shop was overestimating the finish date and that it’s completed a little sooner, I’ll just cross my fingers and let the universe do what it does.